I'm so scared of everything. I'm scared of how things will turn

out when I'm gone. We may say our friendship will last

forever. & I do believe our friendship is strong & will never fail

cus neither one of us will allow it to, but we have no control

over the distance that stands between us. It scares me knowing

that you are going to be laughing & smiling with someone else

other than me. & what scares me the most is that someone is

going to take my space as your best friend. I can't bare the

thought that when I'm sad & crying, someone else is going to be

here wiping my tears from my face. I know a time is going to

come soon when we have to part, but I ask myself why can't it be

later & not now. Our lives are going to change once we part, &

I fear that so much.

--Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, It's about learning how to dance in the rain. &&I want to be someone's last call of the night & their first thought in the morning. I want those 5 hour conversations that end in 'no you hang up first'. I want the heart racing, palm sweaty, 'what's gonna happen next' moments. I want the hugs that you never want to let go of & the stolen kisses that are always the sweetest. But most importantly, I just want to know someone considers me theirs. **every time he goes on away message she clicks to see what it says         ; as if this time he'll suddenly confess his love for her all along [A best friend will know by the sound of your voice, by the look on your face, by the way you walk, by the things you do, exactly what kind of day you're having.]   &&  Promise me. That's all I want. Just a promise that you will n e v e r forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an i m p a c t on your life. Promise me that you'll a l w a y s remember me. Losing you was hard enough. But, I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you. [don't waste your time regretting all your wrongs. know that in the end, you'll get what your heart longs. try not to risk it all ; don't stumble ; don't fall. take the time to read the writings on the wall. hold your head high ; don't be afraid to say goodbye. stay true & be you. do everything there is to do. live life to the fullest & never look back - there is a reason for the future & a reason for the past. love til it hurts ; laugh til you cry. and when your life flashes before you before you die, be happy for what you've done, be happy for what you've overcome, & most of all, be proud of what you had become.] --people say whats the point in liking someone who doesnt like you back, & they're right, there isnt any point but they dont understand just how i feel knowing everyday that im not his, they can say whatever they want but i know that true love isnt something that giving up helps,  its hard giving up on something you think about everyday & sometimes it isnt worth it, so i guess what im trying to say is dont give up, dont loose faith, cus when you think there isnt hope a miracle can come along.

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

Please let me hold you in my arms & make you feel safe & content.
Please, let me tell you how much you mean to me,
how the shine of your face captures my heart & soul.
Please, let me listen to your problems & make them all go away..
I want to hold you so closely to my heart that everytime it beats..
you know it is for you.

Fate determines who enters your life ;;
your actions decide who stays

but when I look in the mirror
I see giirl a whose been through so much
and yet, still finds a way to smile at the past.
She still loves with all her heart
or whats left of it..
& when you see her walk down the hall
I can gaurantee you she'll have her head up high
faking a smile just one last time..
at all those who try & break her
but never will.

When the world sreams give up,
Hope whispers "Keep Going

-truly great friends are hard to find,
diffcult to get & impossible to forget

It's hard to tell him no when i want him so bad,
but i gotta be true to my heart this time

It is hard to realize that everything you've ever wanted, just walked away without saying a word

<3 you..

RebeCca

 AShleiGh

oMg..updated ALL The pictures from shelleys birthday TWICE, and it doesnt show up! i got done and pressed submit and its just a box with an X in it..UGHH!

and when i let XangA upLoad Them it takes FOREVER..

so when i have patience i will put them up ..

<3

You're not friends because you sit together at lunch` or talk on the phone; or have matching flip-flops' or can recite each others wardrode. you're bestfriends because when she smiles, a grin forces itself across your face. no matter how mad you are-- when she cries, you instantly feel her pain, & want to cry with her. When you look her in the eyes you know there's no one you could ever trust more. regardless of how many broken hearts you've had. that's what it means to be best friends. <33 -

whew..havent updated in a long time..

*Jesus take the wheel

Take it from my hands

Cause I i cant do this on my own

I'm letting go

So give me one more chance

To save me from this road I'm on*...

I was sitting on my doorstep,

I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,

But I knew I had to do it,

And he wouldn't understand,

So hard to see myself without him,

I felt a piece of my heart break,

But when you're standing at a crossroad,

There's a choice you gotta make.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,

I guess I'm gonna have to cry,

And let go of some things I've loved,

To get to the other side,

I guess it's gonna bring me down,

Like falling when you try to fly,

It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of

your life,

Starts with goodbye.

EDITTTTTT// hehe shelbie shelley and meee =) we pulled an alllll nighter..until 5:30 when we all crashed..haha heres piccsss

 hehe

 =)

 shelley what are you doing?

 uhm?

 haha ??

- heres where we got

HUNGRYYYY-

5:00 in the morning we were getting tired...=(

 yeah..

 meann look lol

-JUST WAKING UP IN THE MORNING-

shelley and shelbie would NOTT let me get picturess..haha so..

no pictures..

awww and my loverly ashtonn

 awwww

 meow?? haha inside jokee

<333 you

 <3lots of comments please =) this took me a longggg time..

-hm..just got back from indiana..so i am happyy.. i hate being away from homeeee..

*uhm tomorrow i guess// ill be hanging out with ashtonn

&& i think we might be getting our nails done and then going to lunch with her mommyy

**but i dont know yet..

**but i hope everyone had a GREAT christmas..

**and everyone PLEASE pray for Shelbies Dad and the rest of her family..hes been really sick and her mom and her have  been worried!! i love you shelbiee!!

//heres somee picss//

 haha..dont ask

 im pretty gangster myselff..haha

 i love sonicc

 i liked the window hahah!

 me making fun of my sister sleeping..

pretty..(indianaa..)

 frozen pond..i took this 2..

my grandpas funny..haha..??

--> haha this one was on christmas day..i got tackeled haha i was laughing sooo hard..but thats not surprising is it..

 haha..yeeah..

--Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, It's about learning how to dance in the rain. &&I want to be someone's last call of the night & their first thought in the morning. I want those 5 hour conversations that end in 'no you hang up first'. I want the heart racing, palm sweaty, 'what's gonna happen next' moments. I want the hugs that you never want to let go of & the stolen kisses that are always the sweetest. But most importantly, I just want to know someone considers me theirs. **every time he goes on away message she clicks to see what it says         ; as if this time he'll suddenly confess his love for her all along --->friendship isn't just about talking about guys, keeping secrets, & makeup. friendship is about two people, connected at their heart, people who cannot live without each other. (( friendship is forever )) x3 [A best friend will know by the sound of your voice, by the look on your face, by the way you walk, by the things you do, exactly what kind of day you're having.]   &&  Promise me. That's all I want. Just a promise that you will n e v e r forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an i m p a c t on your life. Promise me that you'll a l w a y s remember me. Losing you was hard enough. But, I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you. [don't waste your time regretting all your wrongs. know that in the end, you'll get what your heart longs. try not to risk it all ; don't stumble ; don't fall. take the time to read the writings on the wall. hold your head high ; don't be afraid to say goodbye. stay true & be you. do everything there is to do. live life to the fullest & never look back - there is a reason for the future & a reason for the past. love til it hurts ; laugh til you cry. and when your life flashes before you before you die, be happy for what you've done, be happy for what you've overcome, & most of all, be proud of what you had become.] --people say whats the point in liking someone who doesnt like you back, & they're right, there isnt any point but they dont understand just how i feel knowing everyday that im not his, they can say whatever they want but i know that true love isnt something that giving up helps,  its hard giving up on something you think about everyday & sometimes it isnt worth it, so i guess what im trying to say is dont give up, dont loose faith, cus when you think there isnt hope a miracle can come along.

**did you know that her favorite color is red
or that she's terrified of the dark - that she
can't sleep without the bear right next 2 Her
[ or ] everytime she thinks of you she smiles
she doesn't want to care for anyone.. b|c she
thinks it's just a way of getting hurt `& did
u know she hates arguing but is good at it -
that she hates to go a day w|out talking 2 u
did u know she loves the way u look at her?!`
or that she findss it crazy' that people can
say one thing but totally feel another wayy
open up your eyes....[ she loves you ]

**It wasn't a middle school,
"oh my god he's so cute",
Don't like him in a week,
Kind of love.
It was a butteflies in my stomache,
Sweaty hands,
Can't get my words out straight,
kind of love

*i love you*

edit// all i want for christmas is you..ok and these!!!!

 <--- office max!! =)

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

hmm..

i know you might get tired of quotes..but i like them

 and they express my personality and moods..it gives you something to read too..

Fate determines who enters your life ;;
your actions decide who stays

my love life- disaster
my friendships- beautiful
my family- a little weird
&& i still manage to live life good.